GO Korbin

I will say I am very proud of my little bro Korbin~ His team the Cottonwood Colts just finished the year. Even though they lost the last game they did an excellent job I am sure! Atleast they dont give up!!

Now it is time for his Basketball season to start. I wish I was there to be at every game. But I know he will do fabulous as always. He will be that star he wants to be one day!

I love you little Bro Keep up the hard work

Thoughts

Not sure where I can even start with this one- As the days, and months passed I always wondered how I would feel once Renasia's BirthDate came. I woke up that morning and was still unsure how I was going to feel, I definetly felt sad- because I couldn't go and do what I do with the rest on their Bday give them a hug and kiss and be the 1st to wish them happy birthday. As my day continued I was so busy with work it was really good to be distracted but I couldn't stop thinking about when I get off I get to let balloons go with the kids, and Ren.
I had sent out an email the day before asking that everyone if they found time to let a balloon go with my Angels name and BirthDate on it and Ryan (my boss, but more of a friend) let everyone at my work know about that date- they sent me flowers which was such a surprise and set my day to make me smile. Later on in the day they took me outside, and then all came walking behind me with a pink balloon when I turned my head and saw it that was the 1st time I had cried that day. Wow it hit me hard- it was sad but also because it showed that people really do care. The hardest part I have had with this relocation for our family is adjusting since our entire family is back in Utah- But to have people that I am working with that haven't known me that long show they care just made my day.

When I got home me and the kids went and picked out our balloons of course we didnt follow the same guidelines I gave everyone else :) We got some Mylar balloons with sayings on them- But once Dad got off work we all went outside and let them go at the same time! It defiently is very hard when you think of what you are doing this for. As the night went on I started receiving numerous text messages, and pictures on facebook of balloons that everyone was letting go. Nothing makes me more happy when I see that everyone will take the time to support my sweet Angel-

I always thought this day would be the worst- I am not sure I think January will hit me harder. But I try to remind myself she is in such a better place than any of us. She is probably just the beautiful girl she was here. I do always have the what if's....

What would she look right now?
What if she was still here would she have dimples?
Would she be walking? Talking?

Its so hard to not think that. I think that will always be that way. As a mother its very hard to try to not always be paranoid of what happens next. I will say that I hope 2010 brings our family something positive. We have been through so much and we still have stuck it out. Everyone was always concerned about how me and Ren would turn out- But we back eachother up constantly and we are on eachothers side all the time. When I am down he helps me up, when he is down I help him up. When the kids are down we BOTH help them up. We have united as a family not only by Renasia's passing but by moving and spending alot more time with eachother and not taking life for granted. We know that tomorrow is never promised and we have to spend as much time with eachoter as we can.

Not only with her passing but watching what my friend Ryan is going through and things with his family just puts life in a different perspective. You can be the strongest person and you just never know what tomorrow will bring you.

Well again Thank you EVERYONE for all the phone calls, emails, texts, and pictures I appreciate it a ton! You are all my support system when needed. Just know I can do the same for you if ever needed.

Take care we love yall.

Halloween 2009

Hey Yall,

So for Halloween this year was definetly different. Me, Ren, and the girls went to Santa Barbara and spent the day downtown on their strip. Hung out with Alyse and Kennedy for most of the day at their Job. Walked down to the pier (wow that was far) it was really nice down there. We ate on the pier and basically did some sight seeing.

The girls went trick or treating with Alysse and Kennedy and had fun. KJ was in Utah and went trick or treating with Jenean, Moana, and all the kids.Me and Ren hung out on the Strip while they were trick or treating and defiently experienced things different than in Utah. They basically have it set up like Mardi Gra down there and they go all out. Everyone dresses up and walks up and down the strip, goes into clubs, bars and just has tons of fun. If you go to facebook page you will see some pictures soon.

We hope everyone had a safe & Happy Halloween!!

Moving & Many Changes

Well lets catch everyone up to speed.

We have relocated to Santa Maria, CA. Which most of you know for a job position I was offered. Which I am very happy I was given this opportunity, I couldn't pass up the opportunity to try new things, enjoy new areas, and also give the children a change in life to experience things they probably wouldn't of normally done.

We are settled into a nice home that is in a good area. We love the area, people, and especially the fact that we are 15 min from A BEACH. Yes I said it. I know everyone from Utah is thinking hmmm " like Great Salt Lake?" NO WAY!! This is a beach that when you stand outside you feel so free and hearing the waves is very enjoyable. It definetly is a bonus. We do have quite a few bonus things that came with the move. The weather is fabulous. It is definetly the best weather for Ren to be in with his MS. Which was a HUGE plus for me to make this move.

Kita is settled into her school called Fessler Middle School. She likes it, of course she has made many friends. Even though she was so worried she wouldn't make any. But as we all know she is a social butterfly. She is doing good as far as her grades, and homework which is awesome. She dressed up as Freddie Krogers wife/girlfriend. She rocked the outfit. More pictures to come after trick or treating tomorrow.

Renati has adjusted well. She is going to a new in home daycare, recommended by a friend. Of course the kids are all sorts of ages and the ones that are close to hers are no where near her height so she runs the show as always. At this daycare she gets some great benefits, she gets home cooked mexican food all the time, which she LOVES. lol.. She will slowly learn spanish, which if any of you know always asks about people that speak spanish. She will also learn some sign language in the future too. She does get alot of preparing for Kindergarten. She dressed up as a disco girl. She also rocked her outfit.

KJ- Well he will be here on Tuesday YEAHHHH..I have to drive to the LAX airport and pick him up. He has been staying with gma, and going to school and playing football.. His last game is this saturday and then time to start packing buddy. We have been missing him, were very excited for him to come home. I know that Ren could use some extra male support. All this girl power in the house.

Ren- He is adjusting but loves it, he wasn't the best of friends with Utah haha. He is currently working within the same company as me just in another building. Of course he made friends before I did or as he says aquaintances. :) His health is going pretty good in regards to his MS. Which is awesome, he had a scare in the summer time with a minor relapse but now is doing good. He will only progress as the time goes on.

Now Myself- I can say I LOVE my job, I enjoy going to work. The people are great, and the company has taken me in with open arms. It is a huge adjustment from working form home for the last year but well worth it. As crazy as it sounds working with people is something I love to do. Yes I enjoy working in a call center. haha....What can I say I love a challenge and I love change.

Were going to try our hardest to go home in December I don't have a date yet. New to the company but we will try to make it work. I think if we make it twice a year, and make everyone come and say hi a couple times we will do awesome. HINT HINT...:)

One thing I would like to bring up is My Sweet Angel Renasia's Birthday is this coming Thursday Nov. 5th. I want to ask that everyone sends atleast 1 beautiful pink balloon up into the air with her name on it, and her birthdate 11/5/08. If you have a camera and can take a picture even if its with your phone and send them to me I would appreciate it a TON. You can either send them by text 801-641-0754 or email nati_nati4588@hotmail.com- This is definetly a time in life that I never expected to have to deal with or try to get through. But its reality, I can't say it will be a good, bad, or sad day because I really don't know which my emotions will go, or the familes for that matter. When something so tragic happens to a family its very difficult to get through it. I will say this family has learned to cherish every moment you have with everyone you love. Live as if you aren't promised tomorrow. Learn that life is way to short to not enjoy it.
I know I have personally tried to understand everything our family has been through within the last year, I haven't been able to fully help myself understand. But I will say I am very grateful for what I have been given that is positive. I dont' want to say I am grateful for the negative because I have learned from it. But I am grateful were able to learn to love eachother more than before, and appreciate everything everyone does.

Now with all that- I would like to say I appreciate everyones support in this long journey through 2009- There are no words to describe how much I appreciate everyone's help, words, and just prayers to make it through the rough times.

I would like to end with my boss Ryan Romero which some of you might know has recently been diagnosed with CML Lukemia- I have sent the blog to most of you. Anyways, he is the reason I am in Santa Maria, CA so the same time you are saying many prayers for my family if you could add him into those. He is going through his own battles. He is definetly a fighter but he has been there alot for me and my family!

I hope that everyone takes the time to either respond and sign up for a FREE account. Or send us an email with a response letting us know how all of you are doing.

Love and thoughts for everyone!!!

Nati & Family

Marriage

January 20, 2009 & June 6th, 2009

Our family has always had a bond for life. The day we had Ren walk into our life everything changed. We became a real family. On January 20th, 2009 we sealed our family by showing the amount of love we have for eachother. This day has always been the worst day for Ren, and now that I have made it a new begining of a day and something to be happy about! I didn't do it to take away the pain or the sad day. I did it because I love him with all my heart. He has been an inspiration to me. Without him we wouldn't of been complete.

Me, Ren, and the kids have been through life changing experiences not every family has to go through. But we will always have a special bond and the same love in our hearts for eachother!

In this photo we did RENEW our Vows on June 6th, 2009. Our kids wanted to be a part of our Marriage and to be able to put together this day was also special! To have so many friends and family members that care about come and celebrate with you its wonderful.

Another day....

Days fly by so fast its almost like I forget they started, and then they are over. Our kids are growing up so fast, I feel like if I blink I will miss something special. The kids grow up so fast, and so smart.
Kita is going to be in Jr. High next year I AM NOT READY. As much as she is I AM NOT. We have a good relationship I hope it always stays this way. She is going to start some dance classes, and I think she is excited. She is such a good big sister. Even though they fight everyday they grow together too.
Kalvin will be in 4th grade next year and attending a new Elementary. He doesn't have as many opportunities down in the elementary they are in right now. There are no Higher educated classes which KJ needs to keep his mind stimulated and busy all the time. He is beyond ready for football to start even though its not until the end of the summer.
Renati is going to be 4 at the end of May. She wants a Princess Party!! She keeps us beyond busy. She if very smart and always on the go. I am trying to find a school for her to attend next year to keep her busy. She cant stand to see everyone else go to school and she isn't.
Myself & Ren are just taking everything one day at a time. As a couple I think we have grown more respect for eachother in the last 6 mths, but more in the last 4. Alot of people wonder if we have issues between us. But the thing is we are stronger now than we ever have been. We both put eachothers interest in front of our own. Which someones can be the wrong thing to do I am sure but it balances us out.
We are excited for June 6th. We did have our special day in Vegas on 1/20/09 and this will be a special day for the family, kids, and my parents.

Renasia, We all love you all around the world and back again! There isn't a day that goes by when aren't thinking about you!

Help with our MS Walk!!

Everyone,

Our Family has decided to join the walk for MS!As most of you know our family deals with MS on a daily basis, the struggles, ups, and downs. However we also deal with the benefits we receive from the MS Society. Without the MS Society as a part of our daily lives we don't know what we would face each day.Ren has made tremendous progress on a daily basis thanks to the MS Society.So, we are sending this email to all of you to ask for your assistance in this Walk.

If you would like to join us in walking on April 25,2009 (Saturday) in Ogden we would appreciate it. Also, if you could assist us with reaching our goal of $500.00, now its our FIRST year we would love to exceed this amount with all of your help.We are not asking for any specific amounts anything you can do to help is greatly appreciated. This is a Cause where those with MS see the benefits, we want to give back also help those in the future with all the researches etc being done.

Please help us raise money for Team Hackley! If you can also pass this email on to your co-workers, friends, and family to help us it would be greatly appreciated!!

With Love, The Hackley's
Leinati & Lorenzo
Nakita & Kalvin
Renati & Renasia

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My Little/Big Bro Korbin

As everyone know this is my Little/Big Brother Korbin. I say Little/Big because he is younger than me but Taller than me. He attends Cottonwood High School and plays Basketball, and Track for his School. He also plays on a AAU Team that travels and plays other states which gives him plenty of opportunities to be seen by other Colleges and Scouts.
Were going to Vegas this week to watch him play in a Tournament its so exciting to him grow up so fast! More to come about him......

Mr and Mrs Hackley

Nati & Ren- Where do I start with Us?
Most of you know we did in fact RUN to Vegas on
1/20/09 to get married. We had our reasons. However, we are going to do a vow renewal on 6/6/09 so that our kids can be a part of the ceremony, my dads can have the opportunity to walk me down the aisle. Of course I want to put on the pretty dress and walk down that aisle..But more so to have a semi bachlorette party. LOL :)

Me and Ren have grown so much in the last few months with what we have been through. Sometimes it doesn't seem like were making progress in regards our grief, but our relationship has grown stronger. We have more respect for each other. Without eachother I dont know where we would be today. We cherish everything we have now and don't take anything for granted. I have expressed to everyone how much Ren means to me and the kids. He is the best thing that was brought into our lives. The father the children need and want!

As a family we will continue to keep everyone updated with our lives. I think this will be much easier than sending out updates!

The Kids!

Where do you start with 3 very different crazy brother and sisters!

Nakita- She is 12 yrs old (thinks she is 21) But who doesn't at this fun age? She is definetley her Mother's Daughter. She will help with anything we need. (without a fuss? YEAH RIGHT) But she does like to be very helpful. Kita will be 7th grade next year, and going to a new area Butler Jr. High. I think she will have many more opportunities there than in our area. I don't know who is more scared me or her? Probably me. The thought of your 1st born who was once your baby is

going to be Jr. High. I know she will make the right choices in life with our guidance as parents.

She has worked so hard to improve her grades, and prove to herself that she can do it. We are going to sign up for Dance, gymnastics, ballet, and Hip Hop! Her passion is dancing and just being in the light. She also wants to play Volleyball in Jr. High and continue on! She can do anything she puts her mind to.

Kalvin- He is 9 yrs old. He is in the 3rd grade and his teacher has made comments that he should skip a grade and be in advanced classes. However, his school doesn't offer either. He will also be changing schools next year Butler Elementary. Up there they have plenty of excelled learning classes which is what he needs to keep himself busy! He completes all the work and gets bored. He always needs something to stimulate his mind! If it's not playing PS2, crossword puzzles, computer games, reading and drawing pictures.

Kalvin loves to play sports. He had is 1st year of Football last year and can't wait for the next year to start. He also played Basketball for the first timeand enjoyed that. He is a natural when it comes to sports. We offered him to play FLAG Football and he said NO it's boring. Which is funny because he loves to hit, tackley,and run the ball! Were looking forward to the new season starting soon.

Renati- She is 3 yrs old and will be 4 in May BUT with her you look at her and think she is 7! She is tall obviously gets that from Mom and Dad. She is so smart you don't realize you are even talking to a 3 yr old. Were going to start her into Pre-School this next school year which will be awesome for her to get a headstart and be smart!

She loves to dance, sing, yell, jump, play with my IPOD, oh and she thinks he plays Soccer. She tells us she has her own team and they practice all the time! Were trying to get her signed up so she can realy be on a team! Psst just so you know she is the MINI REN! Well shouldnt even say MINI because nothing on her is small.:)

Renasia would be 5 mths. old today!

As a Mother you always want to protect your children from anything such as falling down, scraping their knee, getting picked on, and doing anything that can put them in any kind of danger.
As a Parent you plan to live longer than your children because you want to raise them and then to raise their kids, and for them to then help you when needed.
But I know for a fact ONE thing a parent never expects to do is bury their own child. Or the thought never crosses your mind you will loose one.
As most of you have read numerous times Renasia was definetley my Miracle Baby she wasn't suppose to be here since I had my tubes tied. BUT, God decided she needed to come down and make it know she was Truly a Miracle and take care of businss while she was here. Then when she came I thought why would God give me this Miracle baby and then make her be sick. Was it really to show what a Miracle she was? Was it to prepare her parents for much worst. A parent never wants their child to be sick or in the hospital. When Renasia made it through that first week I KNEW she was here for a reason and that was to serve a purpose.
Just holding her could make you smile, she was so perfect in every way. Her sister's and brothers were so proud to have her there. They helped whenever they could and always wanted to do something for her. She made the worlds biggest impact on our family.
January 12, 2009 I can't even describe in words how much I almost wish I would never of woke up that day. I can truely say that was the WORST day of entire life! To know that you very special Miracle baby is going to return home because her job here was done is the worst feeling in the world.

Today being 4/5/09 Renasia would be 5 mths old. What does that mean to most parents?
~Trying to sit up
~Rolling
~Crawling
~making noises
~Smiling
All the fun exciting things in life a child brings are within those early stages of live.

I was robbed those moments. I was robbed the ability to take all those pics of all her 1sts and to fight with daddy to see who gets to see her roll first, or crawl, or say dada. All those were taken from me. Now this day 4/5/09 means another day of heart ache and another day of pain.
I try to be that strong Mother, Wife, Daughter, Sister, and Friend. But really inside I am that weak, sad, Mother, Wife, Daughter, Sister and Friend.

Our family has been through a very tragic moment in life. But as a family we have also grown to love eachother even more! We have received a whole other type of love for eachother. I cherish every moment I have to look at my kids, see them breathe, walk, talk, and sometimes even talk back to me. Just thought of hearing their voice makes me so excited as a mother. If we didn't have eachother I honestly don't know where we would be!